| name | value |
| location | Melbourne |
| date | 2024-10-31 |
| dateFormat | dd-mmm-yyyy |
十月三日
A warm spring night. I love this city.
十月二十一日
我想他
十月二十六日
I keep revisiting that moment. That night we spent together in our little office, until 3:30 in the morning. We were so tired but our brains still excited. He drove me home, playing andromeda in his car. The drive was short and we reached my place before the song finished. So I stayed in until it was played through. I thought it could be anything and I wouldn’t care, I just wanted this moment to last forever. I asked for a hug.
十月三十日
When I put my headphones on, I can hear my heartbeat. The rhythm somehow synchronises with this song that is playing right now.
My heart beats so loudly. I feel very emotional. I don’t know if these two things are related in any way at all. A hug might be quite nice. Seems like hugs are a recurring theme this month.
I need to not feel so dramatic. How can I achieve that?
Whatever it is going on between us, it is too intense. I don’t think this is how friendship progresses. So what is it? Are we going to continue to ignore this ever-growing tension? It might actually be better we did so. One day the tension will eventually disappear and we will go back to our old lives without each other. Or, perhaps we will find a way to just be normal friends without such tension.